I haven't trained jujitsu in a month. I dream about it, stay up formulating, see opening for passes and chokes with cuddling... yet as I am in a semi-remote area, I haven't trained.
And the fact is that it takes a toll on you. Back in Oak Harbor today to got the mats, and I just sucked. I wasn't seeing what was there, I had no urgency, and I wasn't beating the people I was supposed to beat. And now I'm just wondering why. Was is the 6 hour drive? Was I not in the zone? Or have I regressed?
I am dating someone. She's just awesome, and I don't want to bring her up to Seattle weekend after next to watch me lose.
Time to get my head in the same place as my heart.