And not for the reasons you'd expect. The corporate undertones and shitty Kennewick slush have never bothered me. I hate Christmas because I have an obligation to come to my parents' house.
And every time I do that, I am reminded why I don't consider it home.
I hate that it feels like my dad doesn't want to be around me unless he's high. I hate that my mother tells me about what everyone on her side of the family is doing and that she is so proud of them, but during the family get togethers none of them seem to know what I am up to. I hate that my sister, father, and myself will always play second fiddle to the family my mom was born into. I hate that my scumbag uncles talk down to me since I stopped hiding that I am an atheist. I hate that my childhood memories of Christmas are shouting matches, and my dad's annual announcement that he is "About ready to say fuck it and return all of this shit."
Christmas is my holiday of resentment. I find myself wishing every year not for any present in particular, but just for my parents to get along for a bit.
So far? No luck.